so that half a dozen engineers who knew he was going to die preferred to remain silent.
You're serious, aren't you? This is unimaginable to me, though I know that there were at least rumors of similar things in Vietnam.
I am getting the distinct impression that you have experienced the world as a cruel and bitter place--please correct me if I'm wrong. This is vastly different than the world I have been privileged to be in--enough so that I nearly lost my dinner, reading about certain bodily fluids.
I would like you to know that there is love---love with no strings or tricks attached--available. I hope that I am not the only one to have offered it to you.