Many of them I had considered to be my friends

You consider me your friend? or consuelo? or wordwind? or annastrophic? Who are these friends?
That humiliated me.

M-W10th Humilate:to reduce to a lower position in ones own eyes
I have no doubt you feel humiliated. i just don't see How i can be responsible for your feelings.

They are your feelings. You can feel happy, or sad, or humble or proud, what ever you chose. It is not psychological mumbo jumbo.

It is true, that your feelings are based things that happen to you.. but you still control how you chose to look at things. and you perspective, is important.

you sent me an PM and said that you know that i hate you.
You can not presume to know what i feel. Unless i tell you how i feel, you can only guess. I decide how i feel, and i decide who i share my feelings with. Maybe i hate you. maybe i don't. you don't know. Nor can you force me to change my feelings towards you, or even to let you know the nature. They are mine. i do not have to share them with you.

I asked for 1 day of peace yesterday
we have been asking for Keiva to leave here from months. not one person, but many people. we haven't gotten what we want either. Do our feeling count for anything? or just yours?


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