I believe you that you are not on drugs - at least not on the kind you take by mouth, inhalation or injection. But the body can produce quite powerful substances quite by itself, depending on mood and circumstances. Furthermore I have an impression that you are somewhat inebriated by that foreign language which you seem to master very well. There is just one phrase which sounds obscure to me: What would be the word for my state of mind the mind not described henceforth? If I propose a word according to your wish, your state will be described henceforth. Therefore your question cannot be answered.