Well, Ken, in spite of the fact that I vowed I would never again respond to any of your posts, since you invite input, I repeat what I told you in private: your conduct on this board has been outrageous, unconscionable and unforgivable. Yes, there are others whose conduct and language is open to criticism Shame on you, Rubrick! but that doesn't excuse you. It's a pity, because, as I have told you, I have enjoyed many of your contributions. But you have this axe that you insist on grinding, you can't just call it a day and start over, and you insist on trying (totally without success) to justify yourself. You just can't shut up about how you are misunderstood and misused, and you keep on getting in digs at other members and trying to line up allies and, in general, sowing discord.
Do you now, at long last, have the idea: WE DON'T WANT TO HEAR/READ IT ANY MORE !!!
If, as you claim, AWAD means something positive to you, shut up totally (I don't say, as I was first going to say, go away.) If you can get yourself in a positive state of mind, I suggest maybe you might want to take the suggestion made above and rejoin under a different name, because I assure you that I, like others, will not respond to any message or read any post with the name Keiva.
